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The Death of a Shadow

What happens when someone throws you away like garbage? What happens when you still care what they think of you afterwards? What happens when you become the worst version of yourself because you blame yourself for their actions? Weak. Nothing. … Continue reading

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Internally, How Do You Find Peace?

Peace, love and harmony. We all want it, we all seek it. Whether it’s from a new love, a new job, or just the feeling within your own heart. How do you find peace within yourself? Why is the answer … Continue reading

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When the Tears Come…

I hit one of my lows yesterday. It was one of those that just hits you and you contemplate death. You’re not really going to do it, but the thought is there. It is like a mountain of pain that … Continue reading

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Lust, Confusion, Pain and So Much Fear

So today I woke up in an incredibly horny state, but in a total fog of confusion and painĀ as well. My head is not on straight. I think I am fighting off both mania and depression at the same time. … Continue reading

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Scream

Scream with anger Scream with hate No one can relate At your end Wrestling with both poles Never knowing what else will come Everyone that lets you down You just scream with hate even more Lock yourself away Die in … Continue reading

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As My Tears Fell, So Did The Rain…

Ever had a good cry? I mean like a really good cry where you cry so hard your essence seems to call out to the universe and you feel like your heart is exploding? I had such a cry yesterday, … Continue reading

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How Being Bipolar Changed my Life

So now that things have finally calmed down, it’s time for a reflection. I never realized how much having a mental illness changes you spiritually, as well as emotionally and mentally. I have finally overcome the mania, and that is … Continue reading

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