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Feeling at my Worst, but still Hoping for the Best

Bipolar is so god damn hard. We can’t make heads or tails of the situations we are in, and even if things are perfect in our perfect world it all still feels like complete shit. Why is that? I have … Continue reading

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A Prayer for Myself, so that I will Live to See Tomorrow

Dear God. If you can hear me, I need your help now. I am drowning in the worst part of Bipolar Depression. I have nothing in my life to make it worth living. If I die tomorrow it won’t matter … Continue reading

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Another Letdown, What is Life Telling Me?

I am so distraught. My anxiety has never been higher. Yet another person had entered my life and played games with my heart. Why do I allow this to happen? Am I that gullible? Is my heart so open that … Continue reading

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When You’re at the Crossroads…

I have come at an impasse in my life.  Have you ever been at the Crossroads of Life and wonder: “what in the hell am I doing here?” Or, “what does it all mean?” I haven’t felt my soul in … Continue reading

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Wherever you go, There you are

Ever heard the clichés, “hurry up and wait, ” or “no matter where you go, there you are?” I have become the embodiment of these sayings now. I have everything in life that I need; a wonderful best friend/mate, a … Continue reading

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Alone. How Do You Deal With It?

Alone. I find myself here. Kind of stuck in my own thoughts, struggling to write, How do you deal with being Alone? I mean like really Alone? Sure you could fill your time with hobbies, TV, reading or the internet, … Continue reading

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Overcoming A Mountain in Life

I had a brush with suicide a little while ago, and today as I reflect on what has happened, I realize how great life really is. It is a gift that we shouldn’t take for granted. I don’t want to … Continue reading

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