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Lust, Confusion, Pain and So Much Fear

So today I woke up in an incredibly horny state, but in a total fog of confusion and painĀ as well. My head is not on straight. I think I am fighting off both mania and depression at the same time. … Continue reading

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Scream

Scream with anger Scream with hate No one can relate At your end Wrestling with both poles Never knowing what else will come Everyone that lets you down You just scream with hate even more Lock yourself away Die in … Continue reading

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As My Tears Fell, So Did The Rain…

Ever had a good cry? I mean like a really good cry where you cry so hard your essence seems to call out to the universe and you feel like your heart is exploding? I had such a cry yesterday, … Continue reading

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How Being Bipolar Changed my Life

So now that things have finally calmed down, it’s time for a reflection. I never realized how much having a mental illness changes you spiritually, as well as emotionally and mentally. I have finally overcome the mania, and that is … Continue reading

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Feeling at my Worst, but still Hoping for the Best

Bipolar is so god damn hard. We can’t make heads or tails of the situations we are in, and even if things are perfect in our perfect world it all still feels like complete shit. Why is that? I have … Continue reading

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A Prayer for Myself, so that I will Live to See Tomorrow

Dear God. If you can hear me, I need your help now. I am drowning in the worst part of Bipolar Depression. I have nothing in my life to make it worth living. If I die tomorrow it won’t matter … Continue reading

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Another Letdown, What is Life Telling Me?

I am so distraught. My anxiety has never been higher. Yet another person had entered my life and played games with my heart. Why do I allow this to happen? Am I that gullible? Is my heart so open that … Continue reading

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