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My Petty Troubles Seem Infinitesimal In The Wake of a Tragic Loss

Contemplating suicide. I have been there. Many people have. But what is it like to actually see death? I have taken this life for granted. Over the past few days, and into the New Year, I have been writing about … Continue reading

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So Much Guilt in My Heart. A Rocky Start to the New Year…

Have you ever done something that you feel guilty for? Said something in anger or hurt someone without realizing it? I was faced with that tonight as I tried the repair the damage I had done to my social circle … Continue reading

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When You Know You’re Doing Wrong, But You Do It Anyway…

Have you ever just thrown yourself a pity party? I mean just really reveled in it. Like, there is really no reason for it, almost to the point where you would consider yourself a spoiled brat even, but yet you … Continue reading

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A New Year’s Plan to Enlightenment

Have you ever had the worst luck ever at the most inopportune time? Have you ever wondered if your karma is coming in for payment? This was supposed to be an amazing week, Christmas was at the head of the … Continue reading

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The Waves of Emotion Can Cripple a Human Soul

What does it feel like to want to die? You hear about suicides, even done by the most famous people like Robin Williams and Heath Ledger and you think why? How could they? I mean they have everything right? Is … Continue reading

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When You Wish This Life Just Made Sense

I don’t know. Call it another manic bipolar night. Call it too much stimulation where everything¬†in my life is just clicking right, but none of it makes sense. Call it amazing sex with three orgasms that I couldn’t get enough … Continue reading

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The Death of a Shadow

What happens when someone throws you away like garbage? What happens when you still care what they think of you afterwards? What happens when you become the worst version of yourself because you blame yourself for their actions? Weak. Nothing. … Continue reading

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