Tag Archives: depression

Knocked Back into Reality

So just the other day, I was boasting about me being a wonderful sex kitten and acting all sexy and what not. Fast forward to today and I am in a horrible place with myself. I will admit, I did have … Continue reading

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Lust, Confusion, Pain and So Much Fear

So today I woke up in an incredibly horny state, but in a total fog of confusion and pain as well. My head is not on straight. I think I am fighting off both mania and depression at the same time. … Continue reading

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Scream

Scream with anger Scream with hate No one can relate At your end Wrestling with both poles Never knowing what else will come Everyone that lets you down You just scream with hate even more Lock yourself away Die in … Continue reading

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Appreciation & What Life REALLY Means

Did you ever stop and ask yourself, “what is the point to all of this?” I have been in and out of so many “relationships” lately, it almost feels like whiplash. Every experience has taught me a lesson; the biggest … Continue reading

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As My Tears Fell, So Did The Rain…

Ever had a good cry? I mean like a really good cry where you cry so hard your essence seems to call out to the universe and you feel like your heart is exploding? I had such a cry yesterday, … Continue reading

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How Being Bipolar Changed my Life

So now that things have finally calmed down, it’s time for a reflection. I never realized how much having a mental illness changes you spiritually, as well as emotionally and mentally. I have finally overcome the mania, and that is … Continue reading

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Coming Down off the High and Sinking in Sin

So I have been particularly manic over the past week or so, and I think I am finally coming down. I have been wrestling with my spirituality and some of the other aspects of my whorish existence. I said goodbye … Continue reading

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