Category Archives: God

Lust, Confusion, Pain and So Much Fear

So today I woke up in an incredibly horny state, but in a total fog of confusion and pain as well. My head is not on straight. I think I am fighting off both mania and depression at the same time. … Continue reading

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When the Dust Settles, Is it Really Love?

Orgasms aside, how do you know it’s love? I mean, REALLY know. And for that matter, can you be in love with two people at once? Things are going really well with the Pilot, and I am getting more engrossed … Continue reading

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How Being Bipolar Changed my Life

So now that things have finally calmed down, it’s time for a reflection. I never realized how much having a mental illness changes you spiritually, as well as emotionally and mentally. I have finally overcome the mania, and that is … Continue reading

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A Question of Faith

What is it like to have faith? What soars through your body when you call out to God or your higher power? I haven’t heard God’s voice in a long time, and it has been very painful for me. Mental … Continue reading

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Recapturing What Was Lost…

Do you ever feel there is a moment in time, that you want to recapture some of the magic of your former self? Have we all just gotten so old and jaded that we can longer see the beauty in the … Continue reading

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A Prayer for Myself, so that I will Live to See Tomorrow

Dear God. If you can hear me, I need your help now. I am drowning in the worst part of Bipolar Depression. I have nothing in my life to make it worth living. If I die tomorrow it won’t matter … Continue reading

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Reflecting on my Two Years with WordPress

I oftne wonder, where has the time gone?  So many things have gone down that I am just trying to make sense of it all. Yet I am here still feeling alone? How did that happen? Is it just because … Continue reading

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