So, it’s Friday/Saturday night, a meal for one, and the same old things on TV. Sigh. How did it come to this? Did you ever stop and ask yourself, “what is it that I WANT?” People have crappy jobs, they have crappy jobs, or they have fabulous jobs and fabulous friends. Then there is the “relationship” that we all want, or we already have. I am sitting here, lost in confusion. My sleeping has improved due to the new hours given to me at my job, which I have to say I am not all that happy about. I don’t know, but I kind of hate life in my own way.
I have no reason to hate life. There are many people WAY worse off than me, and there are people who have it way better, but why the need to compare? Why do we do this? I will admit, my creativity has been stunted as of late for whatever reason. It could be meds, lack of alcohol, lack of stimulation, or just plain lack of interest. I used to write and love writing. I used to write just to write. Now all I want to do is sleep.
How did it get this?
What happened to me?
It could just be another Bipolar Day to mark off the calendar, who knows.