So, coming off the ridiculous high I was on, things seemed to have settled into place. The dating scene has been quiet, with just a few suitors hanging around, (cause you know, they all disappear). I think for the most part people are passing fancies. They go on sites, wanting to connect, but are not able to commit themselves long-term. It’s almost as if that “extra” effort needed is not there.
So here I am, 1:34pm, with a bit of eggs and coffee, pondering life. I saw a great inspirational video called Kyle Cease – Why People’s Opinion of You Aren’t Real this afternoon talking about how we are all running around trying to get approval from other people, whether it be through social media, those thousands of Instagram shots, or just a glance from a passing stranger, (check out the video it’s worth the 4 minutes). We are all on the “hunt” for some sort of gratification, and it begs me to wonder, “is that what this life is?”
I have come to the conclusion that I have an awesome life. Certain things are missing, of course, but that’s not to say things are bad. In this life all we have are moments. And as I stop now amidst my bipolar haze, things are finally becoming clear. Sometimes you just realize you are exactly where you are supposed to be, right at that moment. It’s funny you know, I don’t even feel like connecting or reaching out today. I just want to sit, relax, and stay on the outskirts of the world, just for now.
Do you feel at peace in your own company? Can you put that phone down for one second and just take in the sights around you and the smell in the air? Try appreciating the little things because that’s what truly matters.
Sex is off the table for now, but who knows that “mood” may strike me later where I will be on the prowl once again.
We shall see.