A Texas boy. A NYC girl. Where the odds are against it, they find each other. This interweb. Such a serendipitous thing this is. Electric. He quotes Descartes and her heart stops. Such a man exists? I said I wouldn’t go back into that Adult Chatroom again. That place is swarming with the underbelly of the internet. In mists and shadows, the predators lurk as “Articulate Lady” meets “Artificial Moonlight.” Serendipitous indeed.
He walks. Boots shuffles at his feet. He says he’s from the suburbs. He says he sleeps naked. Six foot, broad shoulders and the bluest eyes that not even the morning sky can compare to nor the deepest fathoms of the ocean. He says he likes a curvy woman. “A little milk in your coffee?” He flirts with me, knowing I am a caramel goddess. Our skin tones will contrast with each other nicely. Oh yes. A white cock in my… Oh yes.
In my escape from the online world, I had forgotten how electrifying a first encounter is. There is so much we don’t know about each other. Is he a Catfish? Is he one of my ex-suitors hiding in disguise? Is he really from where he says he’s from? Is he married? So many unanswered questions. Do you take the risk? Do you just jump in and say screw it, I’m going for it?
I had a passing thought of the Virginian I once knew. I knew that man nearly three and half years. He was my first real online love after me and my ex split. We spoke countless hours and he revealed to me his deepest darkest secrets in which most women would have run for the hills. “Murder Porn.” That’s all I am gonna say regarding that. Well what reminded me of him, is how much I have grown since then. He was a drunk, living a pipe-dream. I held on and stayed by his side, all meaning shit because he later says “well I am here with my wife, nice talking to ya.” Click. Well fuck. Cold ass shit.
But I digress. This Southern boy, I am going for it. I am jumping in head first. Not all relationships end up like the shitty one with the Virginian. Clearing out all those men were in the wake of Azure, a man I knew for almost a year, who ended up blocking me on Skype without reason. He ghosted me after talking for an entire year, or more. People online can become expendable, disposable; like I found out with the Virginian and so many others that came after him. I will admit in purging myself of people I am guilty of the same thing. But at least I said goodbye goddamn it. I gave my reasons for departure and I tried to do the right thing. The time was right. I was primed and ready for this Texan.
Where will the next chapter take me? We will write our story, oh yes we will. Take me upon the wings of ecstasy and make me your master. Wash my fears away in the sweat of your manly resolve. Take me under your arm, and hold me close. It will be alright, little one. He will be the one you were waiting for. Don’t put all your eggs in one basket, they say. Well “they” don’t live my life the way I do. I ride hard and fast. Keep on driving till dawn and don’t look back, baby, it’s gonna be one helluva ride. Strap in if you dare.